What now?

It’s been more than a month since I made a post. Almost feels weird that I haven’t written anything new for such a long time. But why? What have I been doing?

Well, I’ve been busy if that wasn’t obvious, but yeah, I’ve been pretending to be really busy although I had loads of time to write.

My 9 to 5 job has really changed my perception on 9 to 5 jobs. I’ve been travelling and, it almost takes forever to start and end my day. I didn’t know sleeping while travelling only made you feel more sleepy and tired. That’s new, right?

I’ve realized that I’m yet to realize about so many things out there. One could say that I’ve stepped out of the box. Although, funnily enough, I’ve been trying to stay in my cubicle. My career choices have made me question myself. What would it look like after a few years down the line? I’ve been thinking a lot, lately — that I might almost become a guru of some sort, with my spiritual practices focused on “how to live without giving a fuck and not have any consequences?”.

But apart from all of that, why did I start my newsletter? I initially intended for it to be based on content around statistics, then I shifted it to content based on data and culture. After that, I started writing on whatever I felt like. I think that’s how it should be, right?

We gotta write on what we feel like. I don’t care if you like my content or not, I write for myself. Oh, by the way, the subscribers grew from 12 to 71, in a few days! Isn’t that crazy? Damn right, it is. But I’m not happy about it. My subscribers grew because I posted a funny meme in notes, and a thousand people liked it. How could it mean a big deal to me when people subscribe to my newsletter without even being aware of what I write or do? I don’t want people subscribing to my newsletter just because I post funny notes (they’re memes).

Everything feels funny nowadays. When I see something so profound yet stupid happening around me, I just laugh. It’s funny, don’t blame me. Even when something makes me feel sad, I’ve found it almost funny that I felt disheartened over something so incomprehensible. Maybe I’m the one who’s stupid, or am I?

I don’t really know what I’m gonna post about but one thing that I’m sure about is — I write for those who are ahead of the curve. I don’t wanna think much about it, but I’m sure, I’ll write without any prejudices.

P.S. - I also write poems. Here’s one -

Once in a blue moon, 
You look at me,
Thought we don't meet, 
What shall I say?
I wonder if it's my defeat,
For you might never stay.

This wait, I wonder, 
If you even care, 
I've never been unfair, 
Wishing you'd reappear, 
Not anytime soon, 
Perhaps, once in a blue moon. 

                 - Rhithik

Thanks for reading! See ya in the next post :)